Thursday, July 3, 2008

why write?

i write to vent

to think about life

to ponder the meaning of many things

Interpretation of

My mind and spirit

into provisions for my psyche

my psyche...where to begin

unique , off center

off key or out of tune?

not the traditional

strung tune of

e a d g b e meets the 1 3 and five.

broken rhythms

obviously

syllables never seem to match perfect,

still my psyche...,

like the massive layer of saltwater we all know of,

we all know we don’t know

except what they tell us

i fade in and out as far as subjects

i think that...i think too much?

how does one gauge it?

by it i mean the amount of time

spent by another thinking

life seems mechanical

in general, the same

roosters crow at dawn

i hear them when

i wake

with the vanish of the stars

It’s so vast isn’t it?

the universe

or what they tell me it is?

but seriously

it is

vast and incomprehensible

if u think about,

your quantitative

qualities, physical ( as well as ego too i guess)

in respect to

everything else

including what you do and don't know

( sigh )

good ole calvin

knew how to have a good time

sledding, calvinball,

water baloons,

turned into a game called wallyball

Big mounds of snow graced

the hills trees

and driveways alike,

the snowmen were just as unique.

a little grotesque

but hobbes put it in perspective for the inquisitive mind

where does it end?

when do we stop thinking?

death maybe

maybe in death we think more

stuck

im a state of think

maybe that is the

ever so elusive

state of enlightenment

pure thought

crystal clear realizations

and calculated conclusions

mortal thoughts

generally,

sloppy and over analyzed

crude like

ancient hieroglyphics

however full of nutrients

thick and swelled

with thought , emotion, expression

ripe with existence

welcome to my world

you make me furious,
like nobody else can,
found buttons
i didn't know existed

now were stuck
within each other
within these walls
they will have stories to tell

late nights
muffled moans
broken by pillows
halted by traffic

we travel together
high speeds
no seat belts
consequences known

you are as good for me
as i am bad for you
also true
the reciprocal

we are fire
and forest
dried leaves
meets a curious mind
and a lighter

ive never seen sparks like these
strange colors
so cold
happy fourth of july

i keep writing because
im searching for solution
mabye for an extension
justification

knee deep in excavation
we both dig too deep
they say the answers
are on the surface

i didnt even look there
it was too obvious
for a brilliant mind
like ours ( insert laugh here)

so its 2.a.m
again eyes wide open
to prevent
a new days dawn.

writing,
until i see the sun